behind my smile are my tears, i may not showing it, because it's hard for me to say what i really feel, co'z i might disappoint the people around me, and i might disappoint my self in believing something that it will never going to happened.. I really wanna show it to every one who i really am, but how? if the real me is my weakness... Every night my tears are always falling off, i just cant stop to cry.. because i cannot really take more pain on my heart.. I just cant let anyone see me like that, and on the top of it i really don't want anyone to know the reason why.. co'z i rather choice to hurt my self to destroy my soul and to kill my heart than letting you know how much pain i'am keeping in..co'z i want you to be happy, and not worrying about me to what i feel about you.. because now, all i want is to make you happy, to live your life,.. i'm so sorry, i just really really LOVE you.. i promise that i'am always be here with you.. right beside you, and i will never going to left you behind.. i will be there to catch you when you fall..and to love you with all my heart.. I promise that.. and i will going to keep my promise..
