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Home at last, after how many days, months.. I'm finally home.. ggrrr.. but still disappointed about the title defends.. Paasa Much

Lucky or Not?

I dont know, but my groups and i where so lucky to finish our program,.. co'z before the defends, we still have an error.. and we really don't know how to fix it, but thanks to other groups, they actually help us, specially IT Royalties and Fresh Mind.. Every time that we have a problem with our program, they are always helping us, so thank you so much, even do our wev dev project is over, i wish that we can still have a moment together..To relax.. It was really nervous  and fun.. Specially the defends part.. mmh?? FEMMS Group, thank you so much for being part of m life.. i will always going to remember every sleep over, stories, and ect.. it was really fun to know you all..
Lucky or not? co'z we have a launch together at the _____ and the food was taste really bad, my was not even cook.. and arvin and ateh mary ann has the same food, the pork stick then ateh mary ann taste like chocolate, while arvin food taste like sugar.. it was really sweet.. mmh? we will never going to have our launch there any more..

mmh?? getting ready for the title defends tomorrow..
mmh? i wish we can do it., and past..

Pain

Some people hurts by words, and some by actions.. But the biggest hurt i believe is that someone ignoring you when you value them bigger than anything else.. and i still do.. he is the most important person to me, and  i can't believe that he is gone.. and i;am still waiting for the day that he will going to come back, and we will going to be happy again.. i wanna live and say "happily ever after" with him.. but how can i make him mined.. if loving m, he can't do.. i;m not searching for a perfect man, but even if he is not perfect i will still going to love him because choose to be with that person, even if it hurt.. I LOVE YOU, can't you really understand that? or you just done have any interest in me? Why is it, loving you each day, is breaking my heart, seeing you happy with someone else, makes me happy but crashes my soul.. What will i do know, co'z living without you seems to be useless.. I'm sorry f i don't know the word MOVE ON..
My decision is final, I will still love you, until i can't handle the pain any more, and hoping that some day you will going to love me back.. I will not going to give up that easily.. I will going to fight for my love.. till the end..

I'm Fine

 behind my smile are my tears, i may not showing it, because it's hard for me to say what i really feel, co'z i might disappoint  the people around me, and i might disappoint my self in believing something that it will never going to happened.. I really wanna show it to every one who i really am, but how? if the real me is my weakness... Every night my tears are always falling off, i just cant stop to cry.. because i cannot really take more pain on my heart.. I just cant let anyone see me like that, and on the top of it i really don't want anyone to know the reason why..  co'z i rather choice to hurt my self to destroy my soul and to kill my heart than letting you know how much pain i'am keeping in..co'z i want you to be happy, and not worrying about me to what i feel about you.. because now, all i want is to make you happy, to live your life,.. i'm so sorry, i just really really LOVE you.. i promise that i'am always be here with you.. right beside you, and i will never going to left you behind.. i will be there to catch you when you fall..and to love you with all my heart.. I promise that.. and i will going to keep my promise..

WIND

...i'm still young right, i still have a change to find everything i want, everything i've been dreaming off, since the day i meet him,... but can i do it, i need a plan... mmh? the question is, HOW CAN I GET SOMETHING THAT IS NOT MINE... It looks so hard.. but i can do this.. Think positive.. i can get everything i want i just have to believe i can..i can do it.. i'am a strong women..

i've been so much busy this week.. and next next next next.........week...

i have no time.. hahahaha!!! mmh? ewan, gulo.. bahala nah..

DONT READ MY BLOGGER..

i'm so SORRY

...mmh??
i dont like pretending anymore that i dont care, because its getting hurt each day... i want to move on, but how? ... ggrrr.. dying seems to be much less painful than living,.. :'(

sorry but i'm not ready to tell everthing..

I still love you and I probably will

I only have two words for you: I'm done.

After everything I've done for you, every chance that I gave you,

and yet you still break my heart. But it's over now.

Finally I've realized that I don't deserve this and honestly,

you don't deserve me.

Yeah I still love you and I probably will for a long time,

but I can't stay here anymore. It hurts too much.

I guess this is moving on.