Getting Hurt

I dont think that August will be good to me.. 

August 10 - the person i love i love is really.. he is ready to make a move on his crush.. im happy for him, seriously.. but i cannot explained why it feels life ke killing me, is it because i know that there is no change na sana ako nalang.. ako na lang yung mahalin niya.. im happy na very supportive yung boong team namin a kanya, tinutulongan siyang manligaw, but guess what kahit nasa iisang team lang kami, kahit gaanu ko sya gustong isupport sa gusto nya, hindi ko magawa, every time na nag aasaran sila hindi na lang ako kumikibo, but deep inside subrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko.. 

at the end of the day, habang pauwi kami, pilit na tumululo yung mga luha ko sa mga mata ko.. then i realize i have to kill all the feelings i have towards him.. 

di ko alam kung papaanu but i have to try kasi subrang sakit na... how i wish that someday everything will be okey.. 

me and crush (message for him)

guess what.. i really dont know how i fell inlove with yu.. wala ka naman ginagawa para mahalin kita?.. every time na may mag tatanung sa akin tungkol sa nararamdaman ko sayu, ung lagi kung sagot is ewan ko.. kasi hindi ko tagala alam kung crush lang ba kita or mahal na kita.. 

just seeing you smile makes me happy.. every tume i see you i just cant explained how i feel.. 

MEMORIES..

march 2015 first GA na team @fernandina hotel -pajama party.. that night na nagpamasahe (massage)

june 28 2015 lumabas tayu kadama sila ghelly and chai..

july 04 2014 its the day na khmain tayu sa labas na tayu lang. @tokyotokyo

july 05 2015 eto yung araw na inaasar tayu ni ghelly and you said BAE yung gusto mung tawagan natin.. even if that was a joke.. you made me smile, i was so happy

july 21 2015 its was our team GA @antipolo.. on he night na pumunta tayu sa friend ni ate cass (cm ng team).. nalasing ka, nakatulog but guess what inalagaan kita.. how i wish na hindi na lang sana natapus ung gabing yun.. it was so special to me.. because it was the day i realized that you werent just a crush to me.. mahal na kita.. i promise to my self na kahit hindi mu alam , hindi mu napapansin i will always take care of you and love you. and i wish someday yu will know.  .. 

i remember this days dahil it was a special days.. eto yung mga araw na nakasama kita.. 

crush

BAE

 sabi nya eto daw tawagan namn.. 

A Message to the one I Love

The words that I want you to know.

 

I should have just run away,

Be Sides you, I just can’t stay..

I Know that we wont be.. more than friends

Its clear to see..

It hurt’s so Bad, but I cannot let you see

What I feel deep inside me.

The PAIN and BROKEN Pieces of me.

I’ll show you a smile on my face and

without tears falling down on my eyes.

A smile  that show “I’m OKEY - I’m Fine - Dont Worry” J

 

Without a words
You showed me what love is

You even showed me hold my breath
Waiting for you and,
Without a word, you left me

you threw me away
What should I say next? …

Why does it hurt so much?
Why does your memories keep on hurting me?

Even though you're not here anymore

My eyes keep seeing you anywhere.

 

How I wish that someday you will know,

What I feel deep inside me, is a love that I want you to know

You may read this message and feel nothing

Just because you still don’t know that is are the words that I want you to know.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

- (Apollyon Belial Deceptively)

ABD - SHENG

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News Feed. "BE YOU"

Mmh.. Hi,

 

               Its been a months since I updated by Blogger.. Well I’m Back.. #Blind is  here.

 

 

For the latest news feed, I don’t know its been a months, actually it will going to be 1year this coming June since I step on this place. For so long I have been finding my left in a different places. Been wondering what my life could be, and until know it is still a question mark.??.. #IreallyDont know, I’am stock on a place where I thing I’am belong, but every day I find my Left changing,

 

            Some people told me that change is good, we just need to accept the person we are, but what if you don’t like that person you becoming to be?.. There are a lot of thing or a lot of question on my mind right now, I don’t even know how to handle theme anymore, I keep bursting up, I keep crying for the same reason that I really don’t know my self.

            I Always told my friends that it is okay to be different, that it is okay to be show who you want to be.. But I can’t apply it on my self. I manage to show/wear a smile even if I’m sad, …

 

 

 

TO MAKE THE STORY SHORT.. “Don’t be like me, who is afraid to show who I’am”

 

 

 

 

FYI. Super Cute ni Crush…