People and Benefits

a lot of people is like this.. they only know you if they need something.. and in return they give burdens and sorrows..

courage is facing your problem on your own, even if the people around you is polling you down..

cant help to fall inlove...

ayaw kitang isuko, kahit na nasasaktan na ako.. ayaw kitang makitang malungkot, kahit na umiiyak na ako.. ayaw kitang pabayaan, kahit binabalewala mo lang ako.. tandaan mu, napapagod din ako.. pero mahal kita, kaya kinakaya ko.. 

Mirror

see the reflection of you.. do you still know your  self?.. My name is Ma. Rizelle Rafal and i hide my self trying to be somebody that im not.. most people lnow me as Apollyon Belial Deceptively..

the real cannot do anything, shes scare and weak, while apollyon is brave.

have you ever felt that there is a another person inside of you ?.. that there is another you that want to get out. 

Getting Hurt

I dont think that August will be good to me.. 

August 10 - the person i love i love is really.. he is ready to make a move on his crush.. im happy for him, seriously.. but i cannot explained why it feels life ke killing me, is it because i know that there is no change na sana ako nalang.. ako na lang yung mahalin niya.. im happy na very supportive yung boong team namin a kanya, tinutulongan siyang manligaw, but guess what kahit nasa iisang team lang kami, kahit gaanu ko sya gustong isupport sa gusto nya, hindi ko magawa, every time na nag aasaran sila hindi na lang ako kumikibo, but deep inside subrang sakit ng nararamdaman ko.. 

at the end of the day, habang pauwi kami, pilit na tumululo yung mga luha ko sa mga mata ko.. then i realize i have to kill all the feelings i have towards him.. 

di ko alam kung papaanu but i have to try kasi subrang sakit na... how i wish that someday everything will be okey.. 

me and crush (message for him)

guess what.. i really dont know how i fell inlove with yu.. wala ka naman ginagawa para mahalin kita?.. every time na may mag tatanung sa akin tungkol sa nararamdaman ko sayu, ung lagi kung sagot is ewan ko.. kasi hindi ko tagala alam kung crush lang ba kita or mahal na kita.. 

just seeing you smile makes me happy.. every tume i see you i just cant explained how i feel.. 

MEMORIES..

march 2015 first GA na team @fernandina hotel -pajama party.. that night na nagpamasahe (massage)

june 28 2015 lumabas tayu kadama sila ghelly and chai..

july 04 2014 its the day na khmain tayu sa labas na tayu lang. @tokyotokyo

july 05 2015 eto yung araw na inaasar tayu ni ghelly and you said BAE yung gusto mung tawagan natin.. even if that was a joke.. you made me smile, i was so happy

july 21 2015 its was our team GA @antipolo.. on he night na pumunta tayu sa friend ni ate cass (cm ng team).. nalasing ka, nakatulog but guess what inalagaan kita.. how i wish na hindi na lang sana natapus ung gabing yun.. it was so special to me.. because it was the day i realized that you werent just a crush to me.. mahal na kita.. i promise to my self na kahit hindi mu alam , hindi mu napapansin i will always take care of you and love you. and i wish someday yu will know.  .. 

i remember this days dahil it was a special days.. eto yung mga araw na nakasama kita.. 

crush

BAE

 sabi nya eto daw tawagan namn..